断了线的风筝
断了线的琴弦
没味道的糖果
没味道的绿茶

没安全感的感觉
没感觉的感情
没感情的爱情

预知有那么的一天
预知将来临的折磨
无法抵挡，无法阻止

Unforgetable day (25 Sept)

This day..
Planned to go to Sungai Wang Plaza..
by LRT..

Walked a long distance..
only reached there..

Start our plans...SHOPPING!!
At first..
I just felt a bit dizzy..
because there was so crowded..

When my sis want to buy some game cd..
have to wait there..
i felt very dizzy..
and i cant endure it anymore...
so i tell my mum i not feeling well..
then my mum tell me she felt dizzy also..

Then..
i can't walk properly..
and i fainted..
i knocked my lips...

When i woke up..
I realized that i'm lying on the floor..
i thought i was dreaming..

After i felt better..
my mum call me to sit on a chair..
and i felt dizzy again..
my mum ask for sweet..
but i felt nausea..

After that..
i felt dyspnea..
i can't breathe..
that time..
i can't see anything..

Until a guy..
i think he is a doctor..
he hug me and let me lie down on the floor..
this make me feel better..
and he pick up my legs and put on a chair..

My mum was waiting the wheel chair..
to send me to the clinic..
about 30 mins..
the wheel chair came..

3 guys..
hug me to sit on the wheel chair..
*am i that heavy??...T.T..
i know that so many people looking at me..
so i pretend i was sleeping..

When i reach the clinic..
it CLOSED..
because that day is friday..
and the Malays went to mosque..
so..
they have to send me to taxi stop..

Sent us to Bukit Jalil to take our car..
the taxi driver is kind..
he gave us a discount..
and my mum sent me to Taman Kinrara..
to see doctor..

I thought emergency..
can accept the treatment first..
but..
we waited for 30 mins..

My problem is..
my blood pressure very low..
normal is 120/80..
mine is 81/44..
my heartbeat rate is faster than normal..
means that i'm fever..

the doctor suspect that i infected by H1N1..
and he ask me..
"u got running nose?" "yes...a bit..."
"u got sore throat?" "err...yes...a bit..."
"u got cough?" "no"(actually i have...)
then he stopped his question..

And surprisingly..
i felt hungry..
and my mum ask me can i walk..
i have no problem on that..

Walk to the restaurants..
it closed...
walk to another restaurant..
also closed..
my mum say...
WHAT DAY IS TODAY??

Cherish

He went to penang jor..
Miss him...>.<

Night..
Add Math and Bio tuition..
i only have 44% in my add math..
arrgghh...T.T..
Bio..
surprisingly..
i have 93%..
wakaka..

Keep doing photography in the class..
on calculator.. test papers..
so boring......

These days..
really not to feel like want to update my blog...
cause..
i'm busy on playing, shopping..
*haha..

Finally..
i bought what i want..
Finally..
i can hang out with my friends..
Finally..
i can take back my ps to play dancing map..XD

I bought a new bag..
actually i want to replace the old one..
but..
i didn't....

The Gold..
already sink into the sea..
Lichen in the sea..
patiently and slowly..
grow on it..
Until it is covered totally..
No one realize..

I'm totally relax..
*except doing add math n physics
Is the time..
To start a new life..

11 Sept..
Mad day..

Hui ying n heusen..
went to play the stupid amazing race..
the stupid organizer..
don't know how they organize it..
until after school till haven't finish!!!

They called me to help them take care of their purse n handphone..
until after school..
no one come and collect them..
so..
i run n look for them..
i know my mum is waiting for me..
but what can i do?
their thingy is in my hand..
luckily i saw heusen..
n return his handphone..
but i didn't saw hui ying..
i cant wait anymore..
so i just call someone to return it..

then i run to the car..
my mum keep scolding..
this is the 1st time i argue..
and the consequence is....cry..
i can't let my mum wait n i also can't be irresponsible..
what can i do???
HATE IT!!!

I need to rush..
cause im going to watch movie..
at Summit..
still left 50 minutes..
luckily still can collect our reservation tickets..
My mum brought my shirt n pants..
and change it in toilet..

The movie...
"Where got ghosts?"
Highly recommended..
Cinema is the best place to watch it..
the sound effects is perfect..
but...
u have to watch "money not enough 2" before u watch this..

I thought..
I was being so excited..
to wait what is coming soon..
what going to happen soon..
I wait it hopefully..
'coz i know this is the chance..
to change my mind..

But why????
Why i just reject it?
Why i just stop it?
Isn't this not what i want?
I don't know..

Sublimation..
I want to disappear..
from this suffering world..
Never let them to know..
Never let them to prepare..

I can't survive in this world..
Everything is complicated for me..
Can't it be simple?
Almost everyday have complicated feelings, thinkings..

I want a simple life..
I want a simple love..
I want chase back the time that already flow away..
Being an innocent, naive girl..
At least..
I'm happy..

SIMPLE IS THE BEST!!!

My dad..
has touched my blue alarm..
He said..
Don't ever cry..
And RM100 for 1 tear..
After he said that..
I have to pay for RM10 000..

I know what he is trying to say..
He is going to China to work..
I am reluctant to part with him..T.T..
Why this year got so many people leaving??

I need some time..
to calm down..
to think deeply..
But..
i already make a decision..
Don't know what will be the consequences..
Don't know what will happen next..
Don't know is it right or wrong..
Not feeling want to talk..
I want to pampered by.....
I don't want to be the person who pamper..

I think..
I will make the same mistake again..
Although i know the consequence..
I had learn two same lessons..
Yet I still did it again..
The same thing..
I will feel the same feelings..
I just cant control myself from doing that..
I don't know why..
Why can i be so irresponsible???
I should done it completely..
I'm sorry.............................